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Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
2:50 pm
Dumbshits

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Monday, April 14th, 2003
10:53 pm
There are horrible rumors going around in NERO about me. I already know of one person who has started them. I swear if there are any other people who are spreading these fucking rumors and I find out, you WILL pay. That is both a promise and a threat. Have you ever seen me pissed off and in a fucking rage? You don't want to. I would advise the ones who are starting these mother fucking rumors to fucking stop for their own fucking good.

I went through this shit in middle school and I will be damned if I go through it again.

current mood: predatory

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Friday, April 11th, 2003
4:15 am
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN!!!!!!!!!


I know it's not much. I'm sorry I'm not there with all of you guys. I'll make it up to you, I promise!!!

See you guys at the event!

*hugs*

current mood: tired

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Wednesday, April 9th, 2003
8:34 pm - Billy......
From the day we met
You made me forget
All my fears
Knew just what to say
And you kissed away
All my tears

I knew this time I had finally found
Someone to build my life around
Who'd be a lover and a friend
After all my heart had put me through
I knew that it was safe with you
And what we had would never end
Wrong again

Everybody swore
They'd seen this before
We'd be fine
And you'd come to see that you still loved me
In good time

And they said there's nothing you can do
It's something that he's going through
It happens to a lot of men
And I told myself that they were right
That you'd wake up and see the light
And I just had to wait 'til then
Wrong again

And it seemed to me the pain would last
My chance for happiness had passed
And nothing waited 'round the bend
I was sure I'd never find someone
To heal the damage you had done
And my poor heart would never mend
Wrong again
Wrong again


current mood: calm

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Tuesday, April 8th, 2003
8:56 pm - New LJ Account
I got a new LJ account. Soon I won't be using this one anymore and I'll be using LadyAmeirah.

current mood: bored

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Sunday, April 6th, 2003
11:42 pm
I have a steel ward guarding my heart. I have the key to bring it down... I'm just scared to. Scared to get hurt again. I want to bring it down and take a chance, but I fear of making a mistake.

Almost every realtionship I have been in has been abusive in one way or another and I can't go through that anymore.

I found someone who has every single quality in The One I've wanted to end up with since I was a little girl. This guy is unlike anyone I've ever met; a true and sincere gentleman being part of those qualities. Trouble is, my heart says I should bring down my guard and take the chance of a lifetime; but my head says I should keep my guard up and not risk getting hurt ever again.

I'm torn between my heart and my mind and it's killing me.

current mood: confused

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Saturday, April 5th, 2003
10:11 am
My brother (Kevin) is here with Lisa (his new wife and my former best friend) and his two sons; Tyler and Matthew. *sigh* It's been a while since I've seen them all, and things have changed... for the better. It's nice spending time with them and things are a lot better between us compared to the last time we were together.

Both Kevin and Lisa like my idea for my future career plans. I've been seriously talking and thinking about becoming a dolphin trainer. Once I have all my training for becoming a dolphin trainer, I'll try and get the needed funding and everything else to build a marine wildlife rescue and rehabilitation center. Animals that have been rescued and cannot be reintroduced back into the wild, due to one thing or another, will stay at the facility and be used for children/ public educational purposes.

Well, that's part of my idea anyway.

It's raining and I'm going to go wash my car. Why, you ask? Simply because I can!

current mood: moody

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Thursday, April 3rd, 2003
10:37 pm - I DON'T WANT NO SCRUB!
KISS MY ASS YOU MOTHER FUCKING TRICK!

current mood: infuriated

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Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
3:47 pm - MY ANACONDA DON'T WANT NONE UNLESS YOU GOT BUNS HUN!
Oh my god
Becky, look at her butt
Its so big
She looks like one of those rap guys girlfriends
Who understands those rap guys
They only talk to her because she looks like a total prostitute
I mean her butt
It's just so big
I can't believe it's so round
It's just out there
I mean, it's gross
Look, she's just so black


I like big butts and I can not lie
You other brothers can't deny
That when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist
And a round thing in your face
You get sprung
Wanna pull up tough
Cuz you notice that butt was stuffed
Deep in the jeans she's wearing
I'm hooked and I can't stop staring
Oh, baby I wanna get with ya
And take your picture
My homeboys tried to warn me
But that butt you got
Make Me so horney
Ooh, rump of smooth skin
You say you wanna get in my benz
Well use me use me cuz you aint that average groupy

I've seen them dancin'
The hell with romancin'
She's Sweat,Wet, got it goin like a turbo vette

I'm tired of magazines
Saying flat butts are the thing
Take the average black man and ask him that
She gotta pack much back

So Fellas (yeah) Fellas(yeah)
Has your girlfriend got the butt (hell yeah)
Well shake it, shake it, shake it, shake it, shake that healthy butt
Baby got back


I like'em round and big
And when I'm throwin a gig
I just can't help myself
I'm actin like an animal
Now here's my scandal

I wanna get you home
And UH, double up UH UH
I aint talkin bout playboy
Cuz silicone parts were made for toys
I wannem real thick and juicy
So find that juicy double
Mixalot's in trouble
Beggin for a piece of that bubble
So I'm lookin' at rock videos
Knockin these bimbos walkin like hoes
You can have them bimbos
I'll keep my women like Flo Jo
A word to the thick soul sistas
I wanna get with ya
I won't cus or hit ya
But I gotta be straight when I say I wanna --
Til the break of dawn
Baby Got it goin on
Alot of pimps won't like this song
Cuz them punks lie to hit it and quit it
But I'd rather stay and play
Cuz I'm long and I'm strong
And I'm down to get the friction on

So ladies (yeah), Ladies (yeah)
Do you wanna roll in my Mercedes (yeah)
Then turn around
Stick it out
Even white boys got to shout
Baby got back


Yeah baby
When it comes to females
Cosmo ain't got nothin to do with my selection
36-24-36
Only if she's 5'3"

So your girlfriend throws a Honda
Playin workout tapes by Fonda
But Fonda ain't got a motor in the back of her Honda
My anaconda don't want none unless you've got buns hun
You can do side bends or sit-ups, but please don't lose that butt
Some brothers wanna play that hard role
And tell you that the butt ain't gold
So they toss it and leave it
And I pull up quick to retrieve it
So cosmo says you're fat
Well I ain't down with that
Cuz your waste is small and your curves are kickin
And I'm thinkin bout stickin
To the beanpole dames in the magazines
You aint it miss thing
Give me a sista I can't resist her
Red beans and rice did miss her
Some knucklehead tried to dis
Cuz his girls were on my list
He had game but he chose to hit 'em
And pulled up quick to get with 'em
So ladies if the butt is round
And you wanna triple X throw down
Dial 1-900-MIXALOT and kick them nasty thoughts
Baby got back


current mood: energetic

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Thursday, March 20th, 2003
7:05 pm - Fucking BITCH!
On my way home, I get a call on my cell phone; my mom needs me to pick up a bottle of bleach. So I swing by Kroger to buy some. When I got home, I noticed that THE FUCKING BOTTLE WAS FUCKING LEAKING! Now I've got this huge bleach spot on the floor mat and carpet. Oh yeah, did I mention that bleach also got on the roof of my car?

STUPID MOTHER FUCKING BITCH! That fucking whore of a cashier supervisor wasn't paying one damn bit of attention to what the fuck she was doing. Bitch wouldn't shut that fucking hole in her goddamn face.

current mood: pissed off

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Saturday, March 15th, 2003
3:15 pm
Lies are told.
Stories are misconstrude.
Rumors are spread.

The End.

current mood: irritated

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Monday, March 10th, 2003
12:25 am - Mucho Goblin
Went down to Covington (with my puppy) Sat. to pick up Carman, her brother Josh, her dog, and Lowry. Then drove all the way up to Red Top Mountain to help James, Matt, Joe, and a few others from monster town. We were making packets, fixing weapons, and whatnot.

Got 1500 goblin for 2 days of strait monster town work. I had fun. I get to add that to the 700 I earned the several weeks ago.

Now I'm home and I have to leave at 0600 to be at my sisters at 0630. I'll be gone all week again. Be back on Friday night.

I'm going to bed. Night.

current mood: tired

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Sunday, March 2nd, 2003
9:28 pm
I talked to Nolan (my childhood sweetheart) tonight. He's still waiting to spend his life with me. *grins*

current mood: loved

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Sunday, February 23rd, 2003
4:40 pm - I was gone all week
Watched my nephew all week. It was fun. I enjoy spending time with him, my sister, and her husband. My sister offered me a job being my nephews permanent babysitter. I think I'm going to take her up on that offer. She said that when Rayan has a seizure, I know what to do unlike the daycare who doesn't.

Got a call from my boss Thursday. He had to fire someone since they didn't show up to work and didn't bother to call and let him know. So he asked me to work in their place on Friday. I said yes...

BIG MISTAKE...

I had to leave home and drive to Powder Springs at 4AM so I could be there by 5. Well, I dind't get there until 6AM because I got lost for an hour. They gave me shitty directions. When I finally got to work, I was working off New Macland Rd. and was in a freezer all day! So, when I left work, it was 3:30PM and I almost fell asleep in heavy traffic on 285.

I got home safely and fell asleep for 12 hours.

I'm putting in my 2 weeks notice. I'm sorry, but I don't feel like getting lost for an hour again when I'm by myself and in a not-so-good area. My boss told me that we'll be doing a lot of work in Atlanta soon. Don't count me in.

current mood: bored

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Sunday, February 16th, 2003
4:19 am
So, as I'm driving to Billy's house, I go to cross over Hwy 316 and there's cops somewhat blocking the hwy. I see a van being towed, but I'm not sure exactly why since all the cops are there. So, I start to listen to the radio to see if I can find out exactly why and I hear something I was not expecting.

There's a manhunt going on around my area (Lawrenceville/ Dacula) for a murderer. Some guy out in Dacula was found shot to death. Apparently his car had caught on fire and when he did not show up for work, his boss started to look for him ( I find that a little suspicious). The boss "stumbled" across his employee's body shot to death.

Eh, at least that's how I heard it. I'm glad we have an alarm system in our house though.

current mood: tired

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Saturday, February 15th, 2003
7:16 pm
When life hands you lemons, trade them in for salt, limes, and have a shot of tequila.

Here's to you...
Fuck You!

current mood: aggravated

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Thursday, February 13th, 2003
10:24 pm - Be honest.
What do you really think of me?

current mood: curious

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Wednesday, February 12th, 2003
3:40 pm
The haxor handle of Kellee is "Pal3 Cool".

What's yours? Enter your name:


current mood: eh *shrugs*

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2:07 am
Do you know what some of the worst parts about being home schooled is?

I will never get to go to prom.

I've been to a homecoming dance twice. I miss picking out a dress for "the big night". I miss getting my hair done for "the big night". I miss dancing and having a good time with my friends.

If I could go back in time for just a second and come back, I would have stayed, gone to the other two homecoming dances, and go to my prom. Hell, I wouldn't have even minded the possible chance to be prom queen or homecoming queen.

I will never get that graduation picture that all the seniors get put into the year book. I will never get to have a "Congradulations" page in the year book from my parents, family, and friends of how proud they are of me. I will never have that "letter jacket" that I've always wanted. I will never get to walk across that stage to receive my diploma.

The only thing I'm getting from high school through home school that I've always wanted is my diploma and my class ring.

current mood: depressed

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Monday, February 10th, 2003
4:52 pm - Hehe...I was a problem child!
Upon filing my grades from my Psychology exams, I found my In School Suspension (ISS) reports. *snicker* I spent a lot of time in ISS. I got ISS once because my pager went off during class. We had to get it back from the cops after 3 days. It was great!

What I also find funny is that when I transfered from Lilburn Elementary to Dacula Elementary in 4th grade, my grades went downhill. Hehe, they sent in a specialist without me knowing it to study me and to see if I had any psychological problems. She was distracting me, it wasn't my fault!

So anyway, I go into mddle school and my grades plummet even more. I'm failing everything BUT Band. Yes, I played the Clarinet and I was damn good too( I almost got 1st chair, but I was sick that day and couldn't go to school). I never turned in my homework and I never finished a lot of my class work. But, when I took a test, I A'ced it.

Hehehe, then in 7th grade, they made me go to the Dr. to see if I have any problems, again. They said I had ADD. Come to find out later, that over 80% of the kids in school were on ADD or ADHD medication and for every child on this medication, the school got money for it. So, needless to say, my mom took me off the stuff. It's not like I needed it. Hell, I just got bored in class and I did other things (like pass notes, flinging staples and small tightly folded pieces of paper across the room with a rubber-band. I almost hit the teacher once. It was funny- that part was in 8th grade). I had to do something to keep me occupide. You know, it's sad when you go into ISS so much that you become friends with the ISS teacher. I can't count how many times I was there. *snicker*

In 8th grade, they tried to do another Psycological Services Evaluation on me again. LoL. I passed. Still my grades were shitty and my only good grade was a 97 in Band. Why couldn't they figure out that it wasn't me that had problems. They just sucked ass.

Finally I transfer from public school to homeschool (Faith Christian Academy). They sucked too and my grades were horrible. Besides, I hated having to drive an hour to school more than once a week just to turn in a packet, take a damn test, or go in for a Science lab.

Now, I'm doing homeschool through American School and well, I have a 4.0 GPA.

You know, it's really bad when you go back to your old middle school to visit and the Assistant Princapal as well as the ISS teacher still know your name!

current mood: amused

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